you ain't that wonderful

OMG.
haha.
i just got back from baking yummy cake.
haha.
but it went all wrong!
oh my goodness.
haha.
it broke into half according to my prince.
and we couldn't convert the temperature.
haha.
it became a mountain.
goodness me.
haha.
i think my prince will blog more about it.
i shall go off.
and sleep.
and be tired.

shopping with miss koh tomorrow!

oh.
and did i tell you.
that my darling weewee bought me something so nice la.

gosh.
and i really didn't expect it.
you rock weewee!


you say you don't know right?
then let me tell you what to do.
stay away from me.
stay damn fucking far away from me.
i don't want to be a part of it anymore.

and to think that i went all out to try.
you said that i wasn't being a good friend.
so i tried to open up to you.
so i tried to give you that little bit of trust.
but you took that tiny bit and trampled all over it.
you took it and threw it to my face.
and whats more.
on my birthday.
i don't fucking need this.

you want to compare?
fine.
i'll compare with you.
you want to know why i'm not willing to last eleven years with you like i did with sher?
not cause you're a bitch.
sher is one and i am one.
but we accept each other for who we are.
even though we don't like it sometimes.
sorry sher.
i really love you still.
but IJ girls are bitches.
its cause sher understands me.
its cause she doesn't force me.
she doesn't demand.
and she gives me random calls to tell me that she misses me and tells me that she wants to see me.
at even though we've had so many fights.
we still look past those flaws and love each other.
what about you?
i say nothing and you try to force it out of me.
i say i'm fine and you insist that im not.
i can look past that.
i can look past all that.

the fact that you took my trust and steped all over it like it was worth nothing.
takes the last straw.
you go behind my back.
and try to spoil me friend ship with him.
but what makes you think you can do that?
i''ve known him for years.
and how long have you known him?
you think you do.
but do you really?
do you honestly?

you're nothing to me anymore.
you're just a name to a face.
its what you get for taking what i gave to you.
what i tried so fucking hard to give to you.
and throw it back into my face.
i'm not going to forgive you for this.
i'm not.

so if anyone of you wants to assume that its for you then go ahead.
make a fool out of yourself.
all i know is that i know who this is for.
if you want to think that its for you.
and make this worse.
then go ahead.
be my guest.
i don't care.
i know who i typed this for.
who its directed at.
if you don't want to set things clear and ask me for the truth.
continue to assume and create doubts.
go ahead.
i love trouble that comes my way.
all i know is that my conscience is clear.